13 January 2017
Time Travel
If you have to choose between traveling only into the past or only into the future, choose the past, because the future will always come, but the past will never catch up with the future...
12 January 2017
Friends
Don't ask what a friend can do for you, don't ask what you can do for a friend, just be a friend.
7 January 2017
6 January 2017
11 December 2016
Money
I am just really, really tired, and all I want to do, is run away to a place where money is not needed, where I can be alone, where I don't have to take part in society. I just want to make a home in a cave on a beach somewhere..
17 May 2016
12 May 2016
Caring
No one gives a shit.. no one cares.. no one notices my absence. This is how it will be when I'm dead as well.
28 March 2016
Worms
A worm is completely oblivious of the existence of mankind. Is it even aware of any other lifeforms on this planet? Does it know that there's danger everywhere, or is it just living in complete ignorance hence happy..
25 March 2016
Happy Days
You'll never get these days back. They will be in the past soon and they will be gone forever. Make those days happy days. Let people smile. Let people have fun. No matter what happens, no matter what they do, even if you don't like it, let them be happy. For the days will be in the past. Forever.
4 March 2016
Uncle
Uncle thinks he's the big boss of everything family related, but he's not. He's not even the eldest of the family.
29 January 2016
Time Travel
if the wind goes 88 miles per hour, will it travel through time? It needs 1.21 giggawatt.. A bolt of lightning!
28 January 2016
25 January 2016
Moods
Last thought before going to sleep at night: I hope I won't wake up in the morning.
First feeling after waking up in the morning: disappointment.
First feeling after waking up in the morning: disappointment.
24 January 2016
21 January 2016
Thoughts
I know what the weaker sex is, and it isn't women.
It's better I keep silent and for my thoughts and opinions to stay in my own head. No one likes what I have to say, no one likes what I think, no one takes it seriously or values it. I don't know how to be human.
It's better I keep silent and for my thoughts and opinions to stay in my own head. No one likes what I have to say, no one likes what I think, no one takes it seriously or values it. I don't know how to be human.
14 January 2016
12 January 2016
The Past
If you haven't listened to david Bowie 30 years ago then no one wants to know what you did during that time.
11 January 2016
6 January 2016
2 January 2016
Friendship
Good friendships will remain. There is no point fretting and begging, for it is not right. One can only hope they will stay, because they want to, not because you cry for it.
1 January 2016
New Year
No celebrations last night. Was not in the mood. I feel like an utter failure. You look back on the past year, and you can't find a single day where you've done something great, where you've achieved something. 365 days of simply existing. Might as well croak and die.
I told Akhil 'trust me', and he did, and I let him down. How can I forgive myself, for relying on others, thinking they give a shit. Have I lost a friend in him now that he knows he can't rely on me like that. If only I had not given a specific time. If only I had not relied blindly on someone else to come through, then I wouldn't be feeling this shitty. Starting a new year feeling like a piece of shit.
I told Akhil 'trust me', and he did, and I let him down. How can I forgive myself, for relying on others, thinking they give a shit. Have I lost a friend in him now that he knows he can't rely on me like that. If only I had not given a specific time. If only I had not relied blindly on someone else to come through, then I wouldn't be feeling this shitty. Starting a new year feeling like a piece of shit.
31 December 2015
30 December 2015
28 December 2015
21 December 2015
18 December 2015
Common Sense
Some people don't have it. They don't even recognize it when you throw it in their faces.
14 December 2015
Damned
Damned if you do and damned if you don't. Sometimes you just can't win, no matter what you do or say.
13 December 2015
7 December 2015
People
Millions of people don't know..
how fortunate they are being in good health
what it's like to stare death in the face
what it feels like when Grim Reaper knocks on your door
how fortunate they are being in good health
what it's like to stare death in the face
what it feels like when Grim Reaper knocks on your door
5 December 2015
3 December 2015
Plans
Got so many plans for the future.. Buy a boat, build a house, become a landlord, become a farmer... Now all I need is a million dollars..
2 December 2015
27 November 2015
26 November 2015
25 November 2015
23 November 2015
Sewing
Don't sew faster in fear you run out of thread before the task is done. You'll do a sloppy job and you will still run out of thread.
21 November 2015
Newspapers
Shouldn't all newspapers just be called 'gossip'? After all, that's all it is. You could have 'Gossip Times' and 'The Daily Gossip'.
20 November 2015
Guns
- I will never, EVER change my stand on guns. No one needs a gun. If it's not safe where you live, MOVE.
- Someone can say something really casual which doesn't seem to matter but it can make someone else feel like a real piece of shit.
19 November 2015
Refugees
Not opening your doors for refugees makes you just like the captain of the rescue boat in the movie '2012'.
18 November 2015
16 November 2015
Thoughts
Say good morning to every person you encounter.
Don't swallow mucus.
Some people are born stupid.
Don't swallow mucus.
Some people are born stupid.
15 November 2015
Amish
If it wasn't for their gender inequality, I would seriously consider joining the Amish people..
14 November 2015
12 November 2015
11 November 2015
Being A Geek
Waking up in the middle of night due to thunder and lightning feels like emerging from hyperspace. Blackness and extreme light and a banging sound. Too much of a geek's mind you think?
10 November 2015
9 November 2015
8 November 2015
Traveling
Traveling the world showed me that we are all the same human beings, who just try to make the best of our current living situation.
7 November 2015
6 November 2015
Resourceful
When faced with a problem that seems cannot be solved, you'll be surprised how resourceful you can be. There's a solution to every problem, but not every problem is easy to solve.
5 November 2015
Simplicity
Simplicity is the key to happiness. I believe in simplifying my life. Don't need this clutter. Don't need all that shit. One must be willing to shed the unnecessary.
4 November 2015
3 November 2015
2 November 2015
1 November 2015
Bob Ross
Mountainectomy and Bushectomy. These are Bob Ross terms. It means: removing a mountain or a bush after you screwed it up. And if you don't get the right tools, your living room will get all wet because the water from the river on the painting will spill onto your floor, you'll be single soon because your spouse will leave you.
31 October 2015
30 October 2015
29 October 2015
Time
Tomorrow, today will be in the past. It is strange to realize I am writing the past today..
White pepper can turn black and host maggots.
French pots can detach their bottoms when on the fire.
White pepper can turn black and host maggots.
French pots can detach their bottoms when on the fire.
28 October 2015
Ghettos
How do people live in ghettos I don't know.. the most scary place on Earth, surely is any ghetto.
27 October 2015
Pain
Pain causes amnesia. Your mind diverted. Your attention elsewhere. You can't think. Pain, a constant distraction.
26 October 2015
25 October 2015
Happiness
Someone else's happiness is your unhappiness. You can only be happy for someone else's happiness if you yourself receive your fair share of happiness. If you only receive misery and misfortune, it's not possible to look at someone's happiness and share the feeling. Is it envy? Not always. Sometimes, through someone else's happiness, you're reminded of our own unhappiness and it hurts like a mother fucker son of a bitch.
Feeling disappointed.
Feeling disappointed.
24 October 2015
The Sea
To watch a sea at dusk, to see the sun rays over the waves, fills my heart with warmth. Timeless.
Feeling content.
Feeling content.
23 October 2015
Accidents
If in the unfortunate event, we have a car accident, and we're being taken to a hospital in an unconscious state, then what will happen to our dogs? Would someone take them to a vet? Would someone take care of them? Would we ever see our dogs again? I do not fear for my own life. I fear for the life of those who can't fend for themselves...
You can wait a thousand days for a delivery, but the day you're unable to be at home, the parcel is out for delivery.
Feeling worried.
You can wait a thousand days for a delivery, but the day you're unable to be at home, the parcel is out for delivery.
Feeling worried.
22 October 2015
Games
If you play games, don't spend real money to buy green game cash in order to progress quickly, then complain that the game is 'too easy, getting lame'. The lesson is: just play the game and don't spend real money. It's a lot harder to finish tasks if you don't bribe your way through. The game lasts longer.
Feeling wise.
Feeling wise.
21 October 2015
20 October 2015
Socks
I talk to socks. I sorted them out and said 'Find a mate. If you don't have a mate, come with me to the Ministry Of Magic, where we will find you a mate.' When we got to the laundry room (Ministry of Magic) I said 'If you can't find a mate here, you stay here, until one comes to you.'
Ya-El thinks I'm weird.
Ya-El thinks I'm weird.
19 October 2015
Space
If you put your head phones on with no music and you breath in and out deeply through your nose, you sound like an astronaut. Also, winter is my new favorite season.
'this operation is currently prohibited for this disc. ' in other words: don't press the fucking button.
18 October 2015
Awards
If I ever won an award, no matter how big or small it is, I'd never return it for any reason whatsoever. I have never received an award for anything in my life. I wish I had. At least then I'd feel like I achieved something. Whatever I've done in life so far, it's never been awarded. I must suck at life..
I have been keeping a diary since 2009, but I've stopped now. I've stopped writing because there's no point. What's the use. no one cares what happens in my life. No one will ever care about it, no one will ever read those diaries. I feel it's a waste of time, waste of energy...
I have been keeping a diary since 2009, but I've stopped now. I've stopped writing because there's no point. What's the use. no one cares what happens in my life. No one will ever care about it, no one will ever read those diaries. I feel it's a waste of time, waste of energy...
17 October 2015
Shaving
The universe doesn't allow me to shave my legs. Hair removal cream failed. Razor's rubber pad on the blade has melted in the Indian heat. It's like chewing gum now. I give up..
16 October 2015
My Mind
My mind shows me the weirdest things at night. Children with wooden legs, and a nun unwilling to heal them.
15 October 2015
Dreams
Dreamed I fought in a war with the pancakes against the donut balls and danced with two gay men.
14 October 2015
Skin Color
If I use my white skin to gain access to prohibited areas, does that count as prostitution?
13 October 2015
12 October 2015
Cops
Today I read this little piece in the newspaper and it made me change my view on traffic cops in India..
When an auto-rickshaw driver yelled at a cop 'I hope you will die in a road accident!' after being fined for failing to run the fare meter, he got a lecture in return from the smiling cop instead.
"Brother, please pray for the day to come soon. It's better than controlling traffic for long hours without rest or leave, and being abused and cursed by people like you. If I die on duty, my wife will receive insurance and my son will get a government job and everything will be fine." The rickshaw driver said sorry to the officer and left the scene in a huff.
When an auto-rickshaw driver yelled at a cop 'I hope you will die in a road accident!' after being fined for failing to run the fare meter, he got a lecture in return from the smiling cop instead.
"Brother, please pray for the day to come soon. It's better than controlling traffic for long hours without rest or leave, and being abused and cursed by people like you. If I die on duty, my wife will receive insurance and my son will get a government job and everything will be fine." The rickshaw driver said sorry to the officer and left the scene in a huff.
11 October 2015
Feelings
Husband told me last night that I have a good heart, because I helped a man search for his phone in a movie theatre; a man who had annoyed me earlier by texting during the film. I don't know about the good heart, I just sympathized with him because whatever happens to another person, or an animal, I can feel it. I involuntarily place myself in his/her situation, and I feel what it is like. I feel what this person/animal feels inside and if it's a happy feeling, I am as happy as well, but if it's a horrible feeling, I need to fix it, for I don't want anyone else to feel it too. It may make me a sucker but that is how I am. I believe it's called being an empath.
Putting an omelette with tomatoes between two chapattis is the worst idea I've ever had. Never do this. It's horrible.
10 October 2015
Lizards
Accidentally stepped on a baby lizard and it broke in half. Both parts were moving in opposite directions. Then Millu the dog came and ate the body. I feel awful. I took a life :(
9 October 2015
Cockroaches
How come cockroaches simply die in my kitchen for no apparent reason? In the morning, I find several dead ones every day. Why are they dead?
8 October 2015
Watermelon
I have a little watermelon plant, and it was rude to me this morning.
I wanted to smell it because I don't know what a watermelon plant smells like. Every time I tried to smell it, it just bent away from me. So rude. I've never seen a plant bent at will in this way.
I wanted to smell it because I don't know what a watermelon plant smells like. Every time I tried to smell it, it just bent away from me. So rude. I've never seen a plant bent at will in this way.
7 October 2015
Suicide
I am the worst mother in the world. When two of your three kids attempt suicide, you're doing a bad job raising them. It is all my fault. I don't care if anyone tells me it's not, I know it is.
I am a bad mom. I was never fit to be a parent. Those kids deserved more.
People say you only have one life, but I think we have more lives. I think when one life ends, another one begins again, you just don't remember your past life. Towards the end of your life, you won't even remember your present life; how do you expect to remember it in your next life? Maybe people who die young or abruptly might remember flashes of it. Maybe you remember past lives in your dreams. You just dismiss them as dreams.
I am a bad mom. I was never fit to be a parent. Those kids deserved more.
People say you only have one life, but I think we have more lives. I think when one life ends, another one begins again, you just don't remember your past life. Towards the end of your life, you won't even remember your present life; how do you expect to remember it in your next life? Maybe people who die young or abruptly might remember flashes of it. Maybe you remember past lives in your dreams. You just dismiss them as dreams.
6 October 2015
Teens
16 y.o. girls always think they know everything in life and that they are always right. You try to explain something but of course they don't accept what you say, even if they know you're right, they still tell you that you are wrong and you don't know anything. Rolling eyes, slamming doors. When will I ever have peace..
5 October 2015
My Mind
There's way too much on my mind. It's cluttered. It needs spring cleaning. What's on my mind.. How unfair is it that dogs can understand what we say, yet we don't understand anything a dog says to us.
I am mentally exhausted. I feel like I was awake all night, but I slept for 7 hrs straight. Facebook is poison. It drugs you on a daily base, bit by bit and you don't notice it, until your mind has absorbed so much of it you start getting sick. I quit Facebook.
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