Weekdays

Saturday feels like Monday when you don't get to have the day off.

Forgetting

Forgetful mind forgetting everything. Foggy.

Time

Tomorrow, today will be in the past. It is strange to realize I am writing the past today..

White pepper can turn black and host maggots.

French pots can detach their bottoms when on the fire.

Ghettos

How do people live in ghettos I don't know.. the most scary place on Earth, surely is any ghetto.

Pain

Pain causes amnesia. Your mind diverted. Your attention elsewhere.  You can't think. Pain, a constant distraction.

Taste

Never lick a 39 year old gold plated cross. It tastes horrible.

Happiness

Someone else's happiness is your unhappiness. You can only be happy for someone else's happiness if you yourself receive your fair share of happiness. If you only receive misery and misfortune, it's not possible to look at someone's happiness and share the feeling. Is it envy? Not always.  Sometimes, through someone else's happiness, you're reminded of our own unhappiness and it hurts like a mother fucker son of a bitch.

Feeling disappointed.

The Sea

To watch a sea at dusk, to see the sun rays over the waves,  fills my heart with warmth. Timeless.

Feeling content.

Accidents

If in the unfortunate event, we have a car accident, and we're being taken to a hospital in an unconscious  state, then what will happen to our dogs? Would someone take them to a vet? Would someone take care of them? Would we ever see our dogs again? I do not fear for my own life. I fear for the life of those who can't fend for themselves...

You can wait a thousand days for a delivery, but the day you're unable to be at home, the parcel is out for delivery.

Feeling worried.

Games

If you play games, don't spend real money to buy green game cash in order to progress quickly, then complain that the game is 'too easy, getting lame'. The lesson is: just play the game and don't spend real money. It's a lot harder to finish tasks if you don't bribe your way through. The game lasts longer.

Feeling wise.

Dreams

Psychic dreams inform, yet do not give you the power to prevent what's going to happen.

Socks

I talk to socks. I sorted them out and said 'Find a mate. If you don't have a mate, come with me to the Ministry Of Magic, where we will find you a mate.' When we got to the laundry room (Ministry of Magic) I said 'If you can't find a mate here, you stay here, until one comes to you.'

Ya-El thinks I'm weird.

Space

If you put your head phones on with no music and you breath in and out deeply through your nose, you sound like an astronaut.  Also, winter is my new favorite season.

'this operation is currently prohibited for this disc. '  in other words: don't press the fucking button.

Awards

If I ever won an award, no matter how big or small it is, I'd never return it for any reason whatsoever. I have never received an award for anything in my life. I wish I had. At least then I'd feel like I achieved something. Whatever I've done in life so far, it's never been awarded. I must suck at life..

I have been keeping a diary since 2009, but I've stopped now. I've stopped writing because there's no point. What's the use. no one cares what happens in my life. No one will ever care about it, no one will ever read those diaries. I feel it's a waste of time, waste of energy...

Shaving

The universe doesn't allow me to shave my legs.  Hair removal cream failed. Razor's rubber pad on the blade has melted in the Indian heat. It's like chewing gum now. I give up..

My Mind

My mind shows me the weirdest things at night. Children with wooden legs, and a nun unwilling to heal them.

Dreams

Dreamed I fought in a war with the pancakes against the donut balls and danced with two gay men.

Skin Color

If I use my white skin to gain access to prohibited areas, does that count as prostitution?

Ovens

How do people cook full meals in a microwave oven?   I'll never understand that.

Cops

Today I read this little piece in the newspaper and it made me change my view on traffic cops in India..

When an auto-rickshaw driver yelled at a cop 'I hope you will die in a road accident!' after being fined for failing to run the fare meter, he got a lecture in return from the smiling cop instead.
"Brother, please pray for the day to come soon. It's better than controlling traffic for long hours without rest or leave, and being abused and cursed by people like you. If I die on duty, my wife will receive insurance and my son will get a government job and everything will be fine." The rickshaw driver said sorry to the officer and left the scene in a huff.

Feelings

Husband told me last night that I have a good heart, because I helped a man search for his phone in a movie theatre; a man who had annoyed me earlier by texting during the film.  I don't know about the good heart, I just sympathized with him because whatever happens to another person, or an animal, I can feel it. I involuntarily place myself in his/her situation, and I feel what it is like. I feel what this person/animal feels inside and if it's a happy feeling, I am as happy as well, but if it's a horrible feeling, I need to fix it, for I don't want anyone else to feel it too. It may make me a sucker but that is how I am. I believe it's called being an empath.

Putting an omelette with tomatoes between two chapattis is the worst idea I've ever had. Never do this. It's horrible.

Lizards

Accidentally stepped on a baby lizard and it broke in half. Both parts were moving in opposite directions.  Then Millu the dog came and ate the body. I feel awful. I took a life :(

Cockroaches

How come cockroaches simply die in my kitchen for no apparent reason? In the morning, I find several dead ones every day. Why are they dead?

Watermelon

I have a little watermelon plant, and it was rude to me this morning.
I wanted to smell it because I don't know what a watermelon plant smells like. Every time I tried to smell it, it just bent away from me. So rude. I've never seen a plant bent at will in this way.

Suicide

I am the worst mother in the world. When two of your three kids attempt suicide, you're doing a bad job raising them. It is all my fault. I don't care if anyone tells me it's not, I know it is.

I am a bad mom. I was never fit to be a parent. Those kids deserved more.

People say you only have one life, but I think we have more lives. I think when one life ends, another one begins again, you just don't remember your past life. Towards the end of your life, you won't even remember your present life; how do you expect to remember it in your next life? Maybe people who die young or abruptly might remember flashes of it. Maybe you remember past lives in your dreams. You just dismiss  them as dreams.

Teens

16 y.o. girls always think they know everything in life and that they are always right. You try to explain something but of course they don't accept what you say, even if they know you're right, they still tell you that you are wrong and you don't know anything. Rolling eyes, slamming doors. When will I ever have peace..

My Mind

There's way too much on my mind. It's cluttered. It needs spring cleaning. What's on my mind.. How unfair is it that dogs can understand what we say, yet we don't understand anything a dog says to us.

I am mentally exhausted. I feel like I was awake all night, but I slept for 7 hrs straight. Facebook is poison. It drugs you on a daily base, bit by bit and you don't notice it, until your mind has absorbed so much of it you start getting sick. I quit Facebook.