You need to live in the moment. Nothing actually matters in the future and nothing in the past matters anymore. What matters is here and now.

Garlic Bread

Garlic bread is actually very addictive. You can't just have one slice. No. You eat at least six to seven if not ten slices of garlic bread. especially when it's fresh out of the oven.

Depression

Those who confuse being sad or down with depression have clearly never been depressed. Those who have never been depressed will never understand what it's actually like. The constant struggle to stay alive, the internal war between your heart, your brain and your soul. Being depressed is 100x worse than feeling sad or feeling down. It's a battle that hurts inside. I feel a lot of people use the term 'depressed' when they're actually not. Just because you're sad about something doesn't mean you're depressed. Depressed people can be utterly depressed and still laugh about something funny. It's hard to explain it and you can only understand when you go through it. You can't just 'snap out' of a depression. You can't just 'cheer up'. Saying 'it's not so bad' or 'it's not as bad as you think' are really not helping because you've got no idea of what I'm dealing with. Right now I'm not depressed. It just popped in my head just now that's all. That a lot of people actually don't know what depression is. Carry on.

Vegans

Being vegan is utter bullshit. Fine if you want to be that way, but it annoys me when they want special treatment when they go eat somewhere outside their home.  I never entertain people in my house but if I did, I'd not cater for vegans or vegetarians. Sorry but not going to make an effort for your lifestyle.  If I go to a vegetarian/ vegan's house to eat they would not give me a steak either.

Titan

I see a lot of funny memes and jokes about the missing sub Titan appearing on Facebook, people laughing and cracking jokes about 5 people, including a 19 y.o., who died. Why are people like this? It's disgusting and absolutely NOT funny. Because they are billionaires? They deserve to die? No! These are 5 people who were in deed rich but they were decent people who never harmed anybody. The 19 y.o. was a student at Glasgow Uni. His dad a business man who created his own wealth, the others are scientists and the CEO of the sub. There's nothing to laugh about and I feel bad for them that they've excitedly embarked on an adventure, to explore deep sea and take a look at the Titanic. Hell, I would like to see the Titanic with my own eyes too. If 5 people had gone into space and died instead of deep sea, would people still crack jokes and create funny memes? Would they still be laughing at 5 dead people if it was a plane crash or a mine that caved in? People are so disgusting. I can't believe they are the same species as me.

Kids

Just read a professor in child psychology said that a 4 y.o. is still learning life skills and it will learn in its own time, and that when your child loves something you should love it too and when your child hates something you should hate it too. What kind of utter bullshit is this? Is this modern parenting??  If my child hates animals but I love animals I'm sure not going to pretend I hate them too. What kind of upbringing is this? And this comes from a professor? I'm sick and tired of children being treated as if they are all royalty and precious little gems. They are not. Children are just mini humans. They are not to be idolised as Gods. Kids should learn what is what and what you should and should not do in life. A child should also learn that not everyone it meets is instantly in love with them. I fucking hate kids. I will not pretend to like a child when I don't. I will not be nice to a child based on the fact it's a child. Deal with it.  People are spoiling children to no extend, creating those entitled brats who later in life feel the world should bend towards them at all times.

King Charles III

 Prince William said 'everyone's proud of you' to King Charles III on the coronation. Like it's a big achievement to be crowned King when you're the crown prince. What has Charles achieved exactly? Even if he just sat on his ass playing Farmville for the past 10 years he'd still be King now. He's done nothing to achieve being King. He was born into it. That's not hard to do. 

Wonderful children

Why are all children who die 'wonderful children' and 'model students' and 'beautiful/handsome' so on? Only perfect children get killed? If kids who are bullies in school get killed in some way, would they also be described as 'she/he was a wonderful child, a model pupil/student, she/he will be terribly missed by everyone'? Probably, and I don't understand why people HAVE to find something great to say about a dead person. Some kids are horrible. Some kids are bullies. Not every child that dies will be terribly missed.

Activists

Isn't it funny how nobody ever protests against the tobacco industry? Nobody ever protests for the ban of cigarettes. People only protest against things they themselves don't use. I can protest against motorcycles since I don't use them and I don't like the noise and the pollution not to mention the danger of these things. Do I do it? No, because it's none of my business. I hate how people want to force their lifestyle onto other people. Just mind your own business and don't try to be a bloody hero. And if the entire world becomes vegetarian/vegan, then there's no need for farm animals. They will be extinct because nobody will breed a pig if they can't eat it. Just saying.

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like I can fly, high above the clouds in the sky. Sometimes I feel like my mattress might swallow me up completely, so heavy my soul feels. Sometimes I feel neither and my soul just uses a meaty vessel, like the aliens in Men In Black.

Rent

 Every time I transfer the rent money to my landlord I feel as if I'm transferring a shit load of money to a Nigerian Prince. The money is gone and I get nothing in return really.

Muslims & Islam

I am very sorry for the people in Afghanistan at the moment, especially women and girls. It's very concerning. BUT I hate how the people in Europe here are now yelling about 'Islam' and 'that's what you get with a religion like that. I suggest those people take a good look at what Islam actually is. Why do people always think Islam = terrorism or vice versa. A terrorist may be a Muslim. That does not mean all Muslims are terrorists or religious assholes. There are plenty of Christian religions treating their women and girls just as bad as some Muslims do. Mistreating women and girls is not an 'Islamic trait'. The Taliban do not represent Islam. They do however follow the Sharia law to the letter, which is bad. In short: the Taliban are bad. Islam is not. Muslims are not.

Dumb

Everyone else is smarter than me. I feel like I'm probably the dumbest person on the planet.

Racism

 When England voted LEAVE, people felt they had the right to be racist against Europeans, especially East Europeans. When the virus from Wuhan hit the rest of the world, people thought they had the right to be racist against Chinese people. Now with the Indian variation of the virus, people think it's totally fine to be racist against Indians. (I didn't hear about any racism against South Africans though). Do racists actually realize that being a racist doesn't make them superior? Belgians are also experts at racism.  I am ashamed of being a Belgian right now and probably for some time to come.

Choices

Suicide is choosing the best of two horrible options really.. the difference is, one option keeps on going being horrible and the other option stops being horrible the moment you've chosen it. If that makes any sense to you.. if it doesn't, you've never been truly depressed. Don't mistake 'feeling sad' or 'feeling down' with 'being depressed'.

The World

I have never really been interested in the news or what goes on in the world but now I'm all like 'what is life like today..' as it changes every day.. And I feel the world has gone to shite too.. not just with covid but all this violence everywhere and the natural disasters... wtf is this.. In sci-fi movies, the future is never nice and bright.. I guess that is true.. The world only gets worse and worse..

Herd mentality

 Such stupid and gullible people on Facebook with the herd mentality again. Every news website is sharing an article about a young man who helped out a stressed out mother on holiday with the caption 'Hero young man helps out stressed out mum after Ryan Air charges ridiculous baggage fee'.  This young man is not a hero. It's just a decent thing to do when you can help someone out. I've done it in the past. I've paid for a mum's bus fare when she didn't have the exact amount of money, it was raining a lot and she had 2 little kids with her. I paid for someone's groceries when their card got declined. I didn't take pics to send to the newspaper. Nobody did. I didn't brag about it. It's just a good deed I did. The end. As for the stressed out mum, why go on holiday during a pandemic with three little kids on your own? Talk about being stupid. As for Ryan Air, it's a budget airline, which means they only charge you for your seat.  If you wish food and drink on board, they charge extra. If you want to take a suitcase, they charge extra. It's been like that for many years. That is why it's a budget airline. You only pay for what you actually use. Terms and conditions also clearly states fees apply. She probably had a bigger suitcase coming back from holiday than she left the UK. It's also common for airlines to charge bagage fees one way or both ways. Maybe she thought she had paid for both ways and it wasn't. Maybe she got herself a bigger suitcase on holiday for all her souvenirs. Fact is, it's no surprise that if your suitcase is too big for hand baggage i.e. it does not fit in the measuring frame, you have to check it in and pay the baggage fee, which is £50. Yes this makes your fare more expensive, but it will be the same you pay on commercial flights like KLM or Air France or whatever. Those tickets are baggage included. Ryan Air does not include baggage. Again, terms and conditions. I don't fly Ryan Air, but I do know this shit. She should've informed herself better but she sounds like one of those that don't pay attention to anything, does things anyways, then complains she's being 'mistreated'. Ryan Air is not charging a ridiculous fee. It's the same fee as other airlines. People are now commenting shit about Ryan Air and the hero young man and being appalled that the airline has no compassion during a pandemic to wave off the baggage fee. Hello, which rock have they been under? Do they think Ryan Air is not struggling? Why should they not charge baggage fee if she's got baggage? THINK McFly THINK. Sick and tired of the herd mentality. There's no hope for humanity. No common sense, no logical thinking.. no brain activity.. Bunch of zombies living their lives, following others blindly..

Humans

Humans should be at the bottom of the animal kingdom. Clearly they are beneath all other creatures. The most vile animal I've ever had to deal with has always been the human kind. Just thinking about human behavior vs animal behavior. Animals don't disappoint me, they don't let me down.

Aliens

If Aliens do come to Earth this year, there will be two possible scenarios. They see the state of the planet and how the inhabitants behave (primates) and will:

1. Leave and come back centuries from now.

or..

2. Wipe out all inhabitants and claim the planet.

Sadly there's no option 3 where they make peace with the inhabitants simply because humanity isn't worth it

Animal Instinct

My cat caught a bird. It was still alive and I tried to save it. Half an hour later it was dead. RIP little birdie. Though I know it's the cat's instinct to hunt and catch birds, I'm still very sad about it. Buried it in the garden and hope no other animals digs it up again. ✝ .

Lock-Down

If your only problem is being confined to your house/garden, unable to see friends & family, then you’re a very lucky person. So stop complaining and enjoy the PAID vacation you have. Some people are in lock-down without any salary coming in, without money in savings account, without the ability to go to the shops to buy what they need. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT THE LOCK-DOWN!!

Panic Buying

People who buy up shit loads of hand sanitizers and disinfectant products only to sell it on eBay for 10 x the prize are nothing more than fucking Ferengis who deserve to be prosecuted.

About Technology..

there's actually nothing better than a notepad and a pen.. it never crashes, it never deletes itself. It lasts for a hundred years or more.

Gratitude

Complaining you have to go to work is on the same level as complaining that your private jet has turbulence.

Social Networks

People seem to mistake social networks for a place where you can freely roam around to insult and bully people for fun.

Opponents

When you drive someone to desperation., you will face someone with nothing to lose. Choose your opponents wisely.

World Mental Health Day

It's World Mental Health Day and companies are posting pictures on social media asking to share it so that loved ones can see they care. 

Sharing a picture to show you're 'there for them' doesn't help. I suffer from severe depression and nobody actually cares. Nobody stops and thinks how they can help me in any way. I could be dead in my house for ten days and nobody would even notice. Instead of sharing a picture on social media once a year, people should just pay more attention to people they know and stop hiding until this person is more 'cheery'. 

In my experience, when you are in the deepest darkest hole and you see no way out, it is then that people distance themselves from you because they 'don't want that negativity' in their lives. Instead of helping, they just turn to other people who are actually bright and shiny. They let the doomed person suffer alone and don't return until this person has crawled out of that hole all by himself. But it doesn't take much for that person to fall right back in, when they realize nobody was there for them in time of need. Everyone just pretends they are supportive but nobody actually is. Can't be bothered.

Rupees

Ghandiji would never have expected to have his face be shoved between fisherwomen's breasts..

Motherhood

Kids never appreciate everything you did for them when they grew up.

Tattoos

A tattoo is nothing more than graffiti on your own skin.  Why would you do that to yourself?

Driving

Retaking a driver's test every 3 years should be mandatory for everyone. Just because you passed 15 years ago doesn't mean you are still capable of driving safely and properly. People are at their outmost best when doing the test. They pass, and the next day they are doing GTA on the streets in real life. Also people who have their music blasting out their car like it's a fun fair should be fined for noise pollution and endangering other drivers.

Gardening

I prefer plants in pots rather than straight into the ground.

Photography

Photographs are little windows to a different world.

Food

What I eat depends on the expiry date.

Money

Poor countries should not invest their money in space. People are dying on Earth.

Working

There should be a law against people having two jobs while there's lots of people with NO job.

Wealth

Rich people did not become rich by hard work. They became rich because they were given the opportunity to work hard. Not everyone has that opportunity in life. Some people are never given the chance.

Art

In my mind i see the greatest drawing in history of mankind. My hands create the greatest drawing in history of kindergarden.

Feelings

Sometimes people are very quick to judge and dump their opinion on others, but when it happens to them, suddenly everything is different.

Transportation

Airplanes are sky dolphins, riding the waves of turbulence..

Meat

There's a page about dogs which just posted about the beef ban in India and it's flooded with comments of people supporting vegetarian / vegan saying millions of people have survived for thousands of years without meat. 

They fail to remember that vegetarians / vegans need to take food supplements to get vitamins and minerals which is only found in meat, and the fact that homo sapiens are omnivores by nature. If we were not, we would never have put a piece of buffalo in our mouths when we were neanderthals in the first place. If we were naturally vegetarians, we'd have the same diet as rabbits from the day the planet was formed and this wouldn't be an issue. Misusing your power as prime minister to declare an entire subcontinent 'vegetarian' violates the human rights and halts the freedom to choose to eat.

I don't ride a motorbike because I think it's dangerous and pollutes the air, so if I'm prime minister, I can ban all motorbikes. How many people would protest if the prime minister of the UK banned CARS because of pollution? It's the same shit. People have to stop pushing their own ideals onto others.

Compassion

I help people as much as I can, even if it means it will set me back personally. Unfortunately, the majority of people only help when they have something to spare. Even though they help, they only do so if it doesn't affect them in any way.  That is charity, but it's not compassion. Compassion is when you give even when you don't have much yourself, you give even when you can't actually spare it. And then there are people who rather just close their eyes and pretend then know nothing.

Fear

When we go to bed after watching a funny movie, we don't expect something funny to happen in our bedroom. When we go to bed after watching an action movie, we don't expect something to explode in our bedroom, so why is it, that after watching a scary movie, we DO expect to find something scary in our bedroom? It makes no sense.

Cooking

The fire alarm is too sensitive to appreciate my cooking talent.

Scissors

The back end of a pair of scissors can 'cut' your boob if you hold it too close to your chest.

Weight

I want someone to roll me over the floor, so my body becomes longer and thinner, like kids do with play-dough...

Life

My life is like a mechanical bull... I try to hold on, but get thrown down onto the bottom of the earth every time.. Every time I manage to get back on top, I get thrown off again.

Loser

You never realize what a loser you are until someone asks you what you do for a living..

Time Travel

If you have to choose between traveling only into the past or only into the future, choose the past, because the future will always come, but the past will never catch up with the future...

Friends

Don't ask what a friend can do for you, don't ask what you can do for a friend, just be a friend.

Books

Books are better than people..

Wealth

It's easier to be poor in a poor country, than to be poor in a rich country.

Money

I am just really, really tired, and all I want to do, is run away to a place where money is not needed, where I can be alone, where I don't have to take part in society. I just want to make a home in a cave on a beach somewhere..

Nr. 1

Caring

No one gives a shit.. no one cares.. no one notices my absence. This is how it will be when I'm dead as well.

Worms

A worm is completely oblivious of the existence of mankind. Is it even aware of any other lifeforms on this planet? Does it know that there's danger everywhere, or is it just living in complete ignorance hence happy..

Happy Days

You'll never get these days back. They will be in the past soon and they will be gone forever. Make those days happy days. Let people smile. Let people have fun. No matter what happens, no matter what they do, even if you don't like it, let them be happy. For the days will be in the past. Forever.

Uncle

Uncle thinks he's the big boss of everything family related, but he's not. He's not even the eldest of the family.

Time Travel

if the wind goes 88 miles per hour, will it travel through time? It needs 1.21 giggawatt.. A bolt of lightning!

Faith

Jehovah's witnesses are not allowed to have smurfs.

Moods

Last thought before going to sleep at night: I hope I won't wake up in the morning.
First feeling after waking up in the morning: disappointment.

Opinions

My opinion matters, as long as it's the same as his.

Thoughts

I know what the weaker sex is, and it isn't women.
It's better I keep silent and for my thoughts and opinions to stay in my own head. No one likes what I have to say, no one likes what I think, no one takes it seriously or values it. I don't know how to be human.

Dr.Who

I wonder if the Doctor saved the world today..

The Past

If you haven't listened to david Bowie 30 years ago then no one wants to know what you did during that time.

Minds

You can't pretend and fool your own mind.

Scotland

No one in Scotland wears a kilt.

Friendship

Good friendships will remain. There is no point fretting and begging, for it is not right.  One can only hope they will stay, because they want to, not because you cry for it.

New Year

No celebrations last night. Was not in the mood. I feel like an utter failure. You look back on the past year, and you can't find a single day where you've done something great, where you've achieved something. 365 days of simply existing.  Might as well croak and die.

I told Akhil 'trust me', and he did, and I let him down. How can I forgive myself, for relying on others, thinking they give a shit. Have I lost a friend in him now that he knows he can't rely on me like that.  If only I had not given a specific time. If only I had not relied blindly on someone else to come through, then I wouldn't be feeling this shitty. Starting a new year feeling like a piece of shit.

Happiness

I just want everyone to be happy.

Tired

Some people confuse being tired with being lazy.

The World

When the world is your toilet, then I wonder how many stars it has.

Dogs

There's always someone who let's the dogs out. For God's sake..

Common Sense

Some people don't have it. They don't even recognize it when you throw it in their faces.

Damned

Damned if you do and damned if you don't. Sometimes you just can't win, no matter what you do or say.

Being strong

People are only as strong as they are forced to be.

People

Millions of people don't know..
how fortunate they are being in good health
what it's like to stare death in the face
what it feels like when Grim Reaper knocks on your door

River Sand

Everything stops when water stops flowing. Why would you even want imported river sand?

Plans

Got so many plans for the future.. Buy a boat, build a house, become a landlord, become a farmer... Now all I need is a million dollars..

clearing

To clear your mind you must first clear your house.

Basics

Back To Basics.

Skin

Butt skin is very soft. Why?

Hate

Is there an unspoken, unwritten law, that states teenagers have to hate their mother?

Sewing

Don't sew faster in fear you run out of thread before the task is done. You'll do a sloppy job and you will still run out of thread.

Newspapers

Shouldn't all newspapers just be called 'gossip'? After all, that's all it is. You could have 'Gossip Times' and 'The Daily Gossip'.

Guns

1. I will never, EVER change my stand on guns. No one needs a gun. If it's not safe where you live, MOVE.
2. Someone can say something really casual which doesn't seem to matter but it can make someone else feel like a real piece of shit.

Refugees

Not opening your doors for refugees makes you just like the captain of the rescue boat in the movie '2012'.

Distress

Played the 'Damsel in distress' card. Good card. Worked very well.

Thoughts

Say good morning to every person you encounter.
Don't swallow mucus.
Some people are born stupid.

Amish

If it wasn't for their gender inequality, I would seriously consider joining the Amish people..

Animals

You can not expect an animal to behave like humans.

Treatment

I treat my shopping trolley better than the neighbor treats her dog..

Being A Geek

Waking up in the middle of night due to thunder and lightning feels like emerging from hyperspace. Blackness and extreme light and a banging sound. Too much of a geek's mind you think?

Things

Things fall into place eventually.

Vehicles

Every third car is a farm vehicle.

Traveling

Traveling the world showed me that we are all the same human beings, who just try to make the best of our current living situation.

Admiration

I admire people who try hard to improve their lives, even against all odds.

Resourceful

When faced with a problem that seems cannot be solved, you'll be surprised how resourceful you can be. There's a solution to every problem, but not every problem is easy to solve.

Simplicity

Simplicity is the key to happiness. I believe in simplifying my life. Don't need this clutter. Don't need all that shit. One must be willing to shed the unnecessary.

Food

Mac 'n cheese means 'macaroni and cheese', not 'McDonalds and cheese'.

Pain

The smallest thing can give you great pain, like un-popped popcorn under your bare foot.

Freedom

Complete freedom is not holding onto anything.

Bob Ross

Mountainectomy and Bushectomy. These are Bob Ross terms. It means: removing a mountain or a bush after you screwed it up.  And if you don't get the right tools, your living room will get all wet because the water from the river on the painting will spill onto your floor, you'll be single soon because your spouse will leave you.

Weekdays

Saturday feels like Monday when you don't get to have the day off.

Forgetting

Forgetful mind forgetting everything. Foggy.

Time

Tomorrow, today will be in the past. It is strange to realize I am writing the past today..

White pepper can turn black and host maggots.

French pots can detach their bottoms when on the fire.

Ghettos

How do people live in ghettos I don't know.. the most scary place on Earth, surely is any ghetto.

Pain

Pain causes amnesia. Your mind diverted. Your attention elsewhere.  You can't think. Pain, a constant distraction.

Taste

Never lick a 39 year old gold plated cross. It tastes horrible.

Happiness

Someone else's happiness is your unhappiness. You can only be happy for someone else's happiness if you yourself receive your fair share of happiness. If you only receive misery and misfortune, it's not possible to look at someone's happiness and share the feeling. Is it envy? Not always.  Sometimes, through someone else's happiness, you're reminded of our own unhappiness and it hurts like a mother fucker son of a bitch.

Feeling disappointed.

The Sea

To watch a sea at dusk, to see the sun rays over the waves,  fills my heart with warmth. Timeless.

Feeling content.

Accidents

If in the unfortunate event, we have a car accident, and we're being taken to a hospital in an unconscious  state, then what will happen to our dogs? Would someone take them to a vet? Would someone take care of them? Would we ever see our dogs again? I do not fear for my own life. I fear for the life of those who can't fend for themselves...

You can wait a thousand days for a delivery, but the day you're unable to be at home, the parcel is out for delivery.

Feeling worried.

Games

If you play games, don't spend real money to buy green game cash in order to progress quickly, then complain that the game is 'too easy, getting lame'. The lesson is: just play the game and don't spend real money. It's a lot harder to finish tasks if you don't bribe your way through. The game lasts longer.

Feeling wise.

Dreams

Psychic dreams inform, yet do not give you the power to prevent what's going to happen.

Socks

I talk to socks. I sorted them out and said 'Find a mate. If you don't have a mate, come with me to the Ministry Of Magic, where we will find you a mate.' When we got to the laundry room (Ministry of Magic) I said 'If you can't find a mate here, you stay here, until one comes to you.'

Ya-El thinks I'm weird.

Space

If you put your head phones on with no music and you breath in and out deeply through your nose, you sound like an astronaut.  Also, winter is my new favorite season.

'this operation is currently prohibited for this disc. '  in other words: don't press the fucking button.

Awards

If I ever won an award, no matter how big or small it is, I'd never return it for any reason whatsoever. I have never received an award for anything in my life. I wish I had. At least then I'd feel like I achieved something. Whatever I've done in life so far, it's never been awarded. I must suck at life..

I have been keeping a diary since 2009, but I've stopped now. I've stopped writing because there's no point. What's the use. no one cares what happens in my life. No one will ever care about it, no one will ever read those diaries. I feel it's a waste of time, waste of energy...

Shaving

The universe doesn't allow me to shave my legs.  Hair removal cream failed. Razor's rubber pad on the blade has melted in the Indian heat. It's like chewing gum now. I give up..

My Mind

My mind shows me the weirdest things at night. Children with wooden legs, and a nun unwilling to heal them.

Dreams

Dreamed I fought in a war with the pancakes against the donut balls and danced with two gay men.

Skin Color

If I use my white skin to gain access to prohibited areas, does that count as prostitution?

Ovens

How do people cook full meals in a microwave oven?   I'll never understand that.

Cops

Today I read this little piece in the newspaper and it made me change my view on traffic cops in India..

When an auto-rickshaw driver yelled at a cop 'I hope you will die in a road accident!' after being fined for failing to run the fare meter, he got a lecture in return from the smiling cop instead.
"Brother, please pray for the day to come soon. It's better than controlling traffic for long hours without rest or leave, and being abused and cursed by people like you. If I die on duty, my wife will receive insurance and my son will get a government job and everything will be fine." The rickshaw driver said sorry to the officer and left the scene in a huff.

Feelings

Husband told me last night that I have a good heart, because I helped a man search for his phone in a movie theatre; a man who had annoyed me earlier by texting during the film.  I don't know about the good heart, I just sympathized with him because whatever happens to another person, or an animal, I can feel it. I involuntarily place myself in his/her situation, and I feel what it is like. I feel what this person/animal feels inside and if it's a happy feeling, I am as happy as well, but if it's a horrible feeling, I need to fix it, for I don't want anyone else to feel it too. It may make me a sucker but that is how I am. I believe it's called being an empath.

Putting an omelette with tomatoes between two chapattis is the worst idea I've ever had. Never do this. It's horrible.

Lizards

Accidentally stepped on a baby lizard and it broke in half. Both parts were moving in opposite directions.  Then Millu the dog came and ate the body. I feel awful. I took a life :(

Cockroaches

How come cockroaches simply die in my kitchen for no apparent reason? In the morning, I find several dead ones every day. Why are they dead?

Watermelon

I have a little watermelon plant, and it was rude to me this morning.
I wanted to smell it because I don't know what a watermelon plant smells like. Every time I tried to smell it, it just bent away from me. So rude. I've never seen a plant bent at will in this way.

Suicide

I am the worst mother in the world. When two of your three kids attempt suicide, you're doing a bad job raising them. It is all my fault. I don't care if anyone tells me it's not, I know it is.

I am a bad mom. I was never fit to be a parent. Those kids deserved more.

People say you only have one life, but I think we have more lives. I think when one life ends, another one begins again, you just don't remember your past life. Towards the end of your life, you won't even remember your present life; how do you expect to remember it in your next life? Maybe people who die young or abruptly might remember flashes of it. Maybe you remember past lives in your dreams. You just dismiss  them as dreams.

Teens

16 y.o. girls always think they know everything in life and that they are always right. You try to explain something but of course they don't accept what you say, even if they know you're right, they still tell you that you are wrong and you don't know anything. Rolling eyes, slamming doors. When will I ever have peace..

My Mind

There's way too much on my mind. It's cluttered. It needs spring cleaning. What's on my mind.. How unfair is it that dogs can understand what we say, yet we don't understand anything a dog says to us.

I am mentally exhausted. I feel like I was awake all night, but I slept for 7 hrs straight. Facebook is poison. It drugs you on a daily base, bit by bit and you don't notice it, until your mind has absorbed so much of it you start getting sick. I quit Facebook.