Feelings

Husband told me last night that I have a good heart, because I helped a man search for his phone in a movie theatre; a man who had annoyed me earlier by texting during the film.  I don't know about the good heart, I just sympathized with him because whatever happens to another person, or an animal, I can feel it. I involuntarily place myself in his/her situation, and I feel what it is like. I feel what this person/animal feels inside and if it's a happy feeling, I am as happy as well, but if it's a horrible feeling, I need to fix it, for I don't want anyone else to feel it too. It may make me a sucker but that is how I am. I believe it's called being an empath.

Putting an omelette with tomatoes between two chapattis is the worst idea I've ever had. Never do this. It's horrible.

Lizards

Accidentally stepped on a baby lizard and it broke in half. Both parts were moving in opposite directions.  Then Millu the dog came and ate the body. I feel awful. I took a life :(

Cockroaches

How come cockroaches simply die in my kitchen for no apparent reason? In the morning, I find several dead ones every day. Why are they dead?

Watermelon

I have a little watermelon plant, and it was rude to me this morning.
I wanted to smell it because I don't know what a watermelon plant smells like. Every time I tried to smell it, it just bent away from me. So rude. I've never seen a plant bent at will in this way.

Suicide

I am the worst mother in the world. When two of your three kids attempt suicide, you're doing a bad job raising them. It is all my fault. I don't care if anyone tells me it's not, I know it is.

I am a bad mom. I was never fit to be a parent. Those kids deserved more.

People say you only have one life, but I think we have more lives. I think when one life ends, another one begins again, you just don't remember your past life. Towards the end of your life, you won't even remember your present life; how do you expect to remember it in your next life? Maybe people who die young or abruptly might remember flashes of it. Maybe you remember past lives in your dreams. You just dismiss  them as dreams.

Teens

16 y.o. girls always think they know everything in life and that they are always right. You try to explain something but of course they don't accept what you say, even if they know you're right, they still tell you that you are wrong and you don't know anything. Rolling eyes, slamming doors. When will I ever have peace..

My Mind

There's way too much on my mind. It's cluttered. It needs spring cleaning. What's on my mind.. How unfair is it that dogs can understand what we say, yet we don't understand anything a dog says to us.

I am mentally exhausted. I feel like I was awake all night, but I slept for 7 hrs straight. Facebook is poison. It drugs you on a daily base, bit by bit and you don't notice it, until your mind has absorbed so much of it you start getting sick. I quit Facebook.